Is Anybody Out There

Over the past nine months I have been going through a lot and am nearly convinced I have the Post-Tramatic-Syndrome thing. Ive been in and out of very deep depresion, my marriage is on the rocks, I can't keep money in my bank account becuase every time I see money in there I feel like I have to spend it for there may not be a tomorrow. How can my year in Iraq have affected me this much. I enjoyed my time with the Kurdish people and learned a lot from the Muslims about this war and there culture. So why do I have symptoms of PTS? Is it because of the dead and wounded bodies I saw? Do I really miss my M-16? How come I still flinch when I hear anything that sounds like a shot being fired or a bomb popping? My second favorite holiday (the 4th) made me very uncomfortable. I don't get it. Do you?